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crowded city. Now, as we moved from one dim alley to the next, the
silence grew as thick as the moist air. I could not believe that this factory
complex was still active. Small brick buildings were almost overgrown
with weeds and vines. Far up a wall, a window that had once held a hun-
dred glass squares could now show only ten or twelve intact. The rest
were jagged black holes through which small birds occasionally flitted.
Everywhere were the empty oil drums once a bright red, yellow, blue,
but now scabrous with rust.
We turned into an even narrower alley, a cul-de-sac. I stopped abruptly. My
hand went to the lower right pocket of my safari shirt and to the heavy, palm-
sized rock I had picked up on the hillside. Incredibly, I felt no fear now that I
was here, only a strong curiosity as to what the two men would do next. I
glanced over my shoulder to make sure my back was clear, mentally traced a
retreat through the maze of alleys, and turned back to the two Kapalikas.
Watch the heavy one, a part of me warned.
There. The one in khaki pointed up a narrow outside wooden stairway.
The door at the top was a little higher than a normal second floor would be.
Ivy matted the brick wall. There were no windows.
I did not move. My hand closed around the stone. The two men waited a
long moment, glanced at each other, and turned on their heels to walk back
the way we had come. I stepped to the side with my back against a wall and
let them go. I could tell that they did not expect me to follow. Their footsteps
on gravel were audible for a short while, and then there was only the sound of
my own heavy breathing.
I glanced up at the steep stairway. The high walls and narrow strip of
sky made me a little dizzy. Suddenly a flock of pigeons exploded from
some dark cavity under the rooftop and wheeled away, wings flapping
like rifle shots, circling into the heavy sky. It seemed very dark for 3:30 in
the afternoon.
I walked back to the junction of alleys and looked both directions.
Nothing was visible for at least a hundred paces. The rock in my hand felt
cool and properly heavy, a caveman s utensil. Red clay still clung to its smooth
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surface. I raised the stone to my cheek and looked again at the door thirty feet
up the overgrown wall. There was a pane of glass in the door but it had been
painted over long ago.
I closed my eyes a second and let my breathing slow. Then I dropped the
stone into my shirt pocket and climbed the rotting staircase to meet whatever
waited there.
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. . . You bitch Calcutta
You piss yellow leprosy, like jaundiced urine,
Like a great artistic fresco . . .
Tushar Roy
he room was very small and very dark. A tiny oil lamp, open flame
sputtering above a pool of rancid ghee, sat in the center of a square
wooden table but the little light it produced was swallowed by the
Ttattered black curtains which hung on every side. The chamber was
less a room than a black-shrouded crypt. Two chairs waited at the table. On
the splintered table s surface lay a book, its title not quite legible in the sick
light. I did not have to read the cover to know what book it was. It was Winter
Spirits, the collection of my poetry.
The door had opened on a corridor so narrow and so black that I almost
had smiled, remembering the fun house at old Riverview Park. My shoulders
brushed the flaking plaster on either side. The air was thick with the smell of
wood rot and mold, bringing memories of times as a child when I d crawled
under our latticed front porch to play in the moist soil and darkness there. I
would not have entered the narrow hall had not the faint glow of the oil lamp
been visible.
The black gauze curtain hanging just inside the room struck my face as I
entered. It swept aside easily enough, crumbling at my touch like a spider s
abandoned web.
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If the copy of my book was meant to intrigue me, it did. If it was meant to
put me at my ease, it failed.
I remained standing four feet from the table. The rock was in my hand
again, but it seemed a pitiful thing, a child s response. I again remembered the
fun house at Riverview Park, and this time grinned despite myself. If anything
leaped out of the curtained darkness at me, it would damn well get a face full
of granite.
Hey! The black curtains absorbed my shout as effectively as they did the
light. The open flame danced at the movement of air. Hey! Ollie Oxen in
Free! Game s over! Come on in! Part of me was close to giggling at the absur-
dity of the situation. Part of me wanted to scream.
All right, let s get this show on the road, I said and stepped forward,
pulled the chair out, and sat at the table. I laid the rock on my book like a
clumsy paperweight. Then I folded my hands and sat as still and upright as a
schoolchild on the first day of school. Several moments passed. No sound
intruded. It was so hot that sweat dripped from my chin and made small cir-
cles in the dust on the table. I waited.
Then the flame bent to an unfelt movement of air.
Someone was coming through the black curtains.
A tall form brushed back the netting, paused while still in shadow, and
then shuffled hesitantly into the light.
I saw the eyes first the moist, intelligent eyes tempered by time and too
great a knowledge of human suffering. There was no doubt. They were the
eyes of a poet. I was looking at M. Das. He stepped closer, and I gripped the
edge of the table in a convulsive movement.
I was looking at a thing from the grave.
The figure wore gray rags that might have been the remnants of a shroud.
Teeth gleamed in an involuntary rictus grin the lips were rotted away
except for tattered polyps of pulpy flesh. The nose was almost gone, seem-
ingly nibbled away to a moist, pulsating membrane of raw tissue that did not
conceal the twin openings to the skull. The once impressive forehead had
been spared the ravages of the lower face s, but irregular scaly patches cut
through the scalp and left tufts of white hair standing out at odd angles. The
left ear was a shapeless mass.
M. Das pulled out the other chair to sit, and I noticed that two fingers of
his right hand were missing at the middle joint. A rag was wrapped around
what was left of the hand, but it did not conceal patches of corruption at the
wrist, which left muscle and tendons clearly visible.
He sat down heavily. The massive head bobbed as if the narrow neck
could not support it, and the rags over the bowl of a chest rose and fell
rapidly. The room was filled with the sound of our ragged breathing.
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Leprosy. I whispered the word but it seemed as if I d shouted it. The
small flame flickered wildly and threatened to extinguish itself. Liquid brown
eyes stared across the oil lamp at me and I could see now that parts of the eye-
lids themselves had been eaten way. My God, I whispered. Oh, dear God.
Das, what have they done to you? Leprosy.
Yesss . . .
I cannot adequately explain the quality of that voice. The ruined lips made
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